Motivation…and the lack thereof until now

For a while now, I’ve whined and bitched and moaned and groaned about the fact that I have not yet returned to my pre-pregnancy body after giving birth 18 months ago. Granted, I am a couple of pounds lower than my pre-pregnancy weight, but my stomach, butt and thighs resemble nothing of my past. They are untoned, flabby and frankly, larger than I like.

With that being said, I have attempted to control my diet thinking that those aforementioned parts would miraculously tone themselves up. Uh, yeah, right. When you’re rapidly approaching 40, just diet does not work anymore. It helps, but does not change the fact that as we age, our muscles lose their firmness. Especially those that gravity seems to pull at more LIKE MY ASS. What I once proudly flaunted in a tiny swimsuit at the lake now looks like two cats fighting under a blanket when I walk. The toned, tight stomach that was always my pride and joy (thank you genetics for a lot of that) now falls in the “muffin top” category. Although my thighs have never been my favorite body part, at least once upon a time you could see the definition in the muscles. Now, that’s a figment of my imagination (you know, where you keep thinking you see something that’s really not there…yep, that’s what I’m talking about). So it’s time to get serious…seriously.

The Heir to Blair does a little link up on Mondays called McFatty Mondays. I love Ms. BA because she is wonderfully honest and her struggles with her weight (even though I think she looks fab) are an inspiration. In hopes of getting my tone on, I’m linking up with her while I force myself to exercise while continuing to watch my diet. Granted, today is a bust because J2 made dinner reservations at some swanky Italian restaurant in Grapevine and brought me chocolates and wine, but tomorrow it’s the gym, good healthy food and NO ALCOHOL. Not having my cocktail or glass of wine at the end of the day will probably kill me, but it’s going to be worth it not consuming those extra calories and it may just kick start losing a few inches off my hip area.

See, No Neck and Sonnet’s wedding is in 12 days and I don’t have a dress yet. I bought a smokin’ hot Nicole Miller one online, but when it arrived and tried it on, my best friend (T-Spot) said it made me look “hippy” and no, that is not “hippie” that means “wow, you look huge in the butt and thighs”. There are many reasons why she is my BFF and her honest opinion when I ask for it is one of them. After that assessment I’ve been frantically searching for a pewter or gray dress that hides my problem areas and is age/wedding appropriate with no luck. If I would just lose a couple of inches off my butt this wouldn’t be an issue!  ARGH!  It makes me even that much more disgusted and motivated at the same time to make a change.

When you don’t feel good about yourself, it’s hard to see the things in a positive light.  Melissa from A Working Mom’s Closet and Hope  from Hope and the Dress Code is hosting a little get together called Fabulous in February: A Month of Positivity where people name the three things they like about themselves every Monday. As I am struggling with self image, this week it seems appropriate for me try and see some good, so here they are:

Physical Aspect: I really like my legs from the knee down, hence why I am on the search for the perfect dress that is at least knee length! Plus, I look forward to getting my great calves back while working out 🙂
Mental Aspect: When I get my mind set on something, consider it done! I am bound and determined to shave some inchess off in the next few weeks (hopefully ten days), so let’s see how many I can shave off before the big wedding.
Spiritual/Emotional Aspect: I like that I’m a bit of a softie and that sappy commercials make me cry, as does my husband saying sweet things or my child learning something new. On days like today, my husband loves it. When I cry during AT&T commercials, he makes fun of me but it makes me, “me”.

And…here’s the really embarassing part.  Here are the measurements of my “problem” areas so that I know what I’ve lost (because pounds to me don’t really matter, inches do).  I can’t believe I’m sharing this, but what the heck!

Muffin top area (not really my waist, but not my hips either)- 34.5″

Butt:  41″

Hips/Thighs at widest point:  42″

 

So, wish me luck and if you have any great workouts you do, please let me know.  I am always open to suggestions and such.

Oh, and have a wonderful Valentine’s Day!  Give those you love a great big hug, and for those you really love, something special 😉

 

“Til next time,

Nicole

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6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Melissa
    Feb 14, 2011 @ 13:30:45

    I love that you’re doing Fabulous in February. I hope it helps, like I hope it’ll help me too!

    I am by NO means an expert, but I will tell you that I really enjoy doing The Firm workouts. Check out http://www.firmdirect.com. Those are the workouts that I use most of the time. Now if only I could get my eating under control, I’d be much better off…

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  2. Hope
    Feb 14, 2011 @ 18:12:54

    I’m so happy you joined our quest for positivity 🙂 A couple of years ago, I started a journey to lose about 60 pounds and completed it (though I fluctuated now with about 10 pounds). Anyhow, it was definitely a “one day at a time” kind of thing for me. My biggest setback was having an “all or nothing” mindset about what kind of eating/exercising day I was having and mentally beating myself up. You can do it!! 🙂

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  3. Marjorie
    Feb 15, 2011 @ 10:17:53

    Too bad we couldn’t order weight off of certain areas of our body… I mean, we’d all be in great shape. I had to come over and say HI and thank you for your comment this morning. It is so nice to hear that others live with and conquer Lupus everyday with me. It is a nasty diagnosis but not one that I am going to let take over me anymore… well, unless it kicks my ass and makes me listen (like last week). Today is my day, and I am choosing to make it a great one!

    Have a great day… and thanks for stopping by!

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  4. Katie
    Feb 23, 2011 @ 20:06:44

    Well, I think you look great!! But I know the feeling of not seeing in the mirror the little things you used to love about yourself. I’m hoping after baby that I can start running again — I miss being long and lean! Oh, and the description of your booty? Priceless! 🙂

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  5. Ashley
    Mar 15, 2011 @ 07:43:06

    Hey girl…haven’t checked in with you in a while….but still lovin all your great outfits!! I wanted to let you know that the new Goodwill opened up in Lake Worth..I believe on March 11th. I visited yesterday and it is big and beautiful!! I keep thinking that one of these times I am in a Goodwill I am gonna run into you!! I would just love that!! Ha!

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