What I Wore Wednesday (a day late)

Fortunately for me, Lindsey over at The Pleated Poppy had a week like I did and posted her weekly What I Wore Wednesday a day late. Whew! This week, again, has been busy, but the reason I didn’t get to post yesterday was because I was celebrating my three year anniversary with my hubby! I married this amazing guy down in Mexico in a little sleepy town that no one really knows about, on the beach at sunset. We had 24 of our closest friends and family with us, and although the weather was unbearably hot, everyone stuck it out and had a good time. So baby, here’s to you, the love of my life and the saint that you are, thanks for putting up with me, for loving me through better AND worse, and for being my best friend.  You make this crazy life worthwhile!!

Anyway, enough of my lovesick blathering, here’s my week (for the most part):

Thursday-hair appointment

Shirt:  Thrifted and refashioned

Cargo Pants: thrifted

Shoes: Thrifted years ago and recently rediscovered in the back of my closet!

Friday-We drove from North Texas to Eastern New Mexico for my husband’s 20 year reunion, so we were in the car most of the day.  I forgot to take a photo that night when we went out, but here’s what I wore (just taken a few days later when I unpacked it).  Please excuse the fact that the photo does it no justice.  The top is one of my favorites and you can’t even see it 😦

Black Cowl Neck Jersey Top (with pockets): Target

Jeans: Big Star

Booties: Guess, thrifted

Saturday-Dinner and dance for the reunion

Dress:  Ross from probably three years ago

Shoes: black patent BCBG, thrifted

Necklace: Brighton (thanks Mom!!)

Sunday-we spent most of the day driving back and by the time we got home late that night, I did not feel like taking a picture!  Then we got up on Monday and noticed that Fat Dog’s neck was all swollen and that he just wasn’t himself.  We called our vet, took him in and the initial diagnosis was Cushing’s Disease.  For those that don’t know what that is, it’s a disease of the endocrine (hormonal) system that is caused by either a pituitary problem or an adrenal tumor.  The adrenal gland sits on top of the kidneys and secretes hormones, mainly the steroids that the body needs.  His is in super production mode, making him very sick.  I cried most of the day and was not about to take puffy eyed pictures in my non-descript t-shirt and jeans.  I’m sure you understand 😦

Tuesday-Vet and various errands

Dress:  Old Navy, thrifted

Shoes: Bandolino, thrifted years ago

Pin: Macy’s on sale for $2!  This dress is a large and makes me look like I’m wearing a tent, but I love that it’s linen and that it’s nice and breezy in this hot Texas heat.  A pin at the waist is a better way to show some definition rather than altering the item, especially since we’re going to start trying for a second baby here shortly and I want to be able to wear it when I’m pregnant!

Wednesday-anniversary dinner (sushi!!) and a movie

Dress:  Ann Taylor Loft, thrifted

Sweater:  Macy’s

Shoes: Ralph Lauren, thrifted

On my handsome hubby, his jeans are Affliction that he pays a fortune for, but that have lasted him over three years (and look great on him) and shirt, Men’s Warehouse.  J2 shops 1-2 times a year and therefore spends more on clothes.  That seems fair to me-I shop a lot and spend a little, he shops infrequently and spends a lot more!!  LOL!

That’s it for this week.  I love participating in this link party as it really makes me think about what I wear.  If you haven’t already, pop on over to The Pleated Poppy and join the fun.

Poppy

‘Til next time,

Nicole

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Dishin’ About Business-Week Two (Finding Inspiration and my Work Space)

So here we are, week two of the Dishin’ About Business link party from Froggy Girl Designs.  Just in case you’re new to this topic, check out this post for more information.  In short, a group of us are discussing The Handmade Marketplace: How to Sell Your Crafts Locally, Globally and Online by Kari Chapin.  This week Mika (Froggy Girl) assigned us the task of taking pictures of our work space (the real work space, not the “ideal” work space) and sharing them, then letting everyone know what works.  I am fortunate enough that my husband lets me use our office/den area off our main room as my office.  Since it has no door, that is extremely generous of him, as it is never neat!  Granted, it’s not normally this messy, but this is how it looks right now, after returning from a weekend out of town:

To the right is my sewing area, to the left my “work” area, although I have a laptop that I mainly use on one of the tables in the sewing area so that I can look out the windows.  Those windows overlook the backyard and one of my rose gardens, which is a source of inspiration for me.  The ironing board isn’t usually up, nor is it stacked with projects, but I just went on a fabric run and therefore have no room for the new fabric until I get some sewing accomplished.   The sewing area is made up of two Ikea tables that you can mix and match the different components (legs, table tops, etc).  They don’t match the rest of the furniture in the room, but I had one from years ago and they are super cheap (like maybe $40).  I have a cutting mat, but just in case the rotary cutter that I use went off the mat, I didn’t want to mess up an expensive table.  The bookcase (which is filled with business and sewing books) has a file cabinet in the bottom that allows me to keep all of my official records in there.

This is one of my project piles.  This actually includes both personal and business projects-the personal ones are on the left.  I keep thinking that if my brain is fried from working on business projects that I might actually dig into a personal one.  That really hasn’t happened.

This is the view from my sewing table.  The computer cabinet is from Ikea and cost something like $400 a year or so ago.  The bookcases to the left are from Ikea as well and were $50 each; they hold my projects to be sewn.  Let’s not talk about the ironing board on the right side of the picture!  What a mess!  You can’t even see the smaller bookcase behind it that holds all of my notions cans and library books, as well as my plants and some other things.

Here’s a close up of the bookcases-more projects to finish.  I just did inventory last week and made sure that I could go on a sewing streak without having to run to the fabric store to buy more.  I have vowed not to buy any more fabric until all of this is used!  (Well, at least not fabric for work projects, personal projects I need a few yards to finish some things…).

For the most part, this set up works for me.  I also have more fabric stashed in the guest room closet, but that is more personal stuff and extra yardage.  The bookcases are great-they allow me to see what I need to work on all while keeping it neat and tidy.  I do wish I had a larger cutting table, but that won’t happen any time soon as there is too much stuffed into this small room as it is!  Someday, I want a slightly bigger home with a room that has a door-as you can see, the dogs like to camp out in the doorway and J3 comes in all the time to raid the desk drawers.  I do also need to move my inspiration board; when I’m working at one of the tables it’s behind me and that does me no good.  I do like the thought of an inspiration wire though…and I have a place for it.

Anyway, next week the topic is branding, so I’m really excited!  By then I hope to have this all neat and tidy, projects matched up and put away, and a ton of sewing happening. If you’re stuck in a rut with your business, join us at Froggy Girl Designs and jump in the discussion!

Froggy Girl Designs

“Til next time,

Nicole

What I Wore Wednesday-Week Two

Hello All!

Here we are, back for week two of What I Wore Wednesday hosted by Lindsey over at The Pleated Poppy. I wish I could say that I had a really exciting week clothes-wise, but no such luck. It is incredibly hot here in Texas and frankly, I would live in a tank top and sweat shorts (with my Old Navy flip flops of course) if I could, but since everyone is looking at what I’m wearing I can’t allow that to happen. I’ve missed either taking pictures myself over the past couple of days, or have forgotten to ask my husband before he’s gone to work, so there are only five-sorry! But here’s my attire for the week…

Thursday:  Keeping J3 out of the house while J2 sleeps…visited the Camp Bowie Goodwill-pardon the horrible lighting, I haven’t taken pictures in the mirror yet (and hopefully won’t have to as time goes on).

Top:  Mossimo-thrifted

Shorts:  NY & CO-thrifted

Flip Flops:  Old Navy

Here’s a close up of the shirt-funny thing is, I had found the shorts first, and since they fit I bought them not knowing what that color would ever go with since it’s not really brown, tan or gray.  A week later, I stumbled on this Mossimo shirt and thought the colors might match, which they do.  Score!

Friday:  Fabric shopping and a stop at the university where I should be finishing this next semester (thank goodness!)

Dress:  Ross from three years ago (I bought it to wear on my honeymoon)

Shoes:  Kenneth Cole Reaction that I got four years ago at T.J. Maxx

Necklace:  Made by me 🙂

Close ups of the shoes and necklace:

Saturday:  Hanging out at our friend’s pool (read all about the drama here)

Swimsuit: Victoria’s Secret (sale from last year)

Cover Up: X Dye, thrifted

Shoes:  No Boundaries from years ago (found them in the back of my closet)

Hat:  Life is Good Golf cap (I wish I could remember where I got it-I think Dick’s Sporting Goods?)

Sunday:  Hanging out, thrifting, staying out of the house so J2 could sleep

Tank Top:  Old Navy

Skirt:  Thrifted and handmade-I love it!

Flip Flops:  duh, Old Navy!

Monday:  Another trip over the the college,this time for J2 since he’s going back to get his BSN and I was trying to convince them to let me register for him (no such luck)

Top:  The Limited, thrifted on this trip to Double Exposure

Shorts: Style & Co- from Macy’s (three years ago)

Shoes:  Athena Alexander, thrifted and SOOO comfortable!

Necklace:  NY&C

Pardon the super-pasty fabulous skin that I’m showing . I do plan on rectifying that little problem over the next few days-look for a post about self tanning.  Also, tomorrow is the day that I show all my loot from the Fort Worth area Goodwill raid.  I’m pretty excited-I shouldn’t have to shop for a very long time.

If you haven’t been to the link party for What I Wore Wednesday over at The Pleated Poppy, do so now!  There are some great people participating and I love seeing what everyone is wearing.  It gives me inspiration when I’m desperately trying to figure out what to wear that doesn’t look like the “mommy” uniform.

Poppy

‘Til next time,

Nicole

Dishin’ About Business-Week 1 (So what are you afraid of?!?)

This past week I’ve been reading posts over at Froggy Girl Designs and she is hosting a discussion about the book The Handmade Marketplace: How to Sell Your Crafts Locally, Globally and On-line by Kari Chapin (which you can find on Amazon here, and no, I don’t get a cent for linking to it).  I ordered my copy when I read Froggy Girl was hosting a discussion, but it hasn’t arrived quite yet.  The nice thing about Amazon though, is that with many of their books you can see the table of contents, and such is the case for this one.  Chapter One is titled “Setting the Scene for Success” and the first section is “Setting Goals”.  This is also the homework assignment for this week over at Froggy Girl.  I’ll spill mine in a minute (at least the ones I have for now).

For the past seven months, I have found every reason not to get my business off the ground.  I’ve used every excuse in the book for not getting things going, from the “I don’t have time” excuse to “I’m in the research and development phase” to “I’m waiting on (this vendor) for (this product) and can’t continue without it”.  I just need to face it, I’M SCARED.  Scared that this will fail, scared no one will like what I do, scared that I won’t be able to make it, although I have a strong background in business.  In fact, of all the comments left on Froggy Girl’s original post, fear was the number one reason that other readers have for not feeling successful.  Trust me, I have plenty of time (c’mon I’m a SAHM), I have plenty of feedback from others for “research” and I could put my wares up for sale without waiting on labels/banners/websites etc.  I just need to do it and I think participating in this group will help that.

So here are my goals:

  • List 10 items in my Etsy shop by July 31st
  • Join Etsy Fort Worth by August 1st
  • Join SITS Girls by July 22nd
  • Have the second prototype of the product I’m trying to patent done by August 1st
  • And, depending on some things, have my corporation paperwork submitted by August 1st (don’t hold me to that too hard though)

I figure all of these should get me headed on the right track.  Then I can solidify a marketing plan and whatnot that is more realistic than the one I did three months ago (and have not accomplished a darn thing.)  I also found a little inspiration book that can hold all of my random business thoughts when thrifting the other day.  Isn’t it cute?

It was $1.50 and even though the lovely people at Goodwill stuck the sticker on the outside and damaged a couple of the oh-so-cute owls, I can fix that with some well placed little ditties.  Plus it was completely empty and has cool recycled paper pages.  Score!

So that’s it for this week.  It’s been fun!  For some reason I’m having issues with Froggy Girl’s Dishin’ About Business button, but here’s the button for her site to link back to…

Froggy Girl Designs

‘Til next time!

Nicole

Sunday Confessional-Water Safety

These past few weeks since the hubster went to nights have really been a blur.  I’ve been trying to adapt to his schedule so that we can spend some time together, yet I also have an almost 12-month old boy and his schedule . Needless to say, the only reason I knew today was Sunday was because the store closed earlier than what I exepected.  That also means I missed Thrifty Thursday this past week-I am so sorry!  I have been hitting all of the Goodwill stores in my area (Tarrant County) and will post about my visits to all 12 on Thursday, I promise!

This week’s Sunday Confessional then is an interesting one.  Yesterday we visited J2’s best friend over on the other side of Dallas.  They have been best friends since high school (and we’re headed to their 20 year reunion this upcoming weekend, so the friendship spans quite a few years), and his best friend has a huge, beautiful home that houses him, his wife, their two and a half year old little girl and their seven month old baby boy.  The guys went golfing while his wife and I watched the three kids and talked about everything under the sun (our men, babies, sewing, etc).  After the guys got back, we all decided to take a swim in their brand-new pool.

Now this pool is not just a pool.  First off, it cost what a decent home here in the DFW area of Texas costs and includes a rock waterfall, a tiled slide, a hot tub and an area just off to the side that has a 60″ flat screen TV and some gorgeous furniture, plus an outdoor kitchen.  Yeah, when we saw it, we drooled all over ourselves.  Cool thing is, they saved up and paid cash for it (must be nice!).  We had just ordered pizza when it was decided that everyone was going to go down the slide.  We all went down, with J2’s best friend’s wife going down last with their daughter.  Well, something happened; J2’s best friend thought that his wife was going to go under the water and then pop up with their little girl and he would grab their daughter, and she thought he was going to grab their daughter as they hit the water.  Of course, neither happened.

For a moment, it was confusing; the wife popped up without the daughter, both realized the other one didn’t have her and all hell broke loose.  J2 had just dived down into the deep end to grab something off the bottom of the pool and the wife and husband are trying to find their daughter in a pool that has a blue bottom (and therefore is very dark).  I had J3 in my arms and was completely helpless, J2 was entirely unaware of what was happening above him, and the husband and wife were frantic.  Thankfully, they found her and grabbed her quickly, but she had been under just long enough that when she came up she threw up all over daddy.  All of our hearts were beating out of our chests and I thought I was going to throw up.

Now, yes, I might have thrown up due to the adrenalin, but I also felt sick for another reason.  See, when I was eight, my slightly older cousin and  I were playing in the pool and we started goofing around.  I splashed him, he splashed me, I splashed him harder, and he proceeded to hold me under the water.  The next thing I knew, someone was bending over me (performing CPR I later found out) and I too threw up all over.  To this day, I am terrified of being trapped under the water.  I doubt I will ever scuba dive (even snorkeling is a push for me, although I can talk myself through it) and I don’t like being in deep water either.  Seeing two dear friends frantically trying to find their daughter in the deep end of the pool brought back all those old memories.  Of course, their daughter wants nothing to do with the water right now, poor thing.  Hopefully she won’t end up scarred like I am to this day.

I’m sure there are readers asking why she wasn’t wearing some kind of flotation device.  That I don’t know.  But I know that J3 will be in one from here on out, no matter what.  For many on Facebook or on Twitter, you may have seen this blog post on how to spot someone that is drowning (if you haven’t read it, stop right now, read it and then come back.  Don’t worry, we’ll wait-this is SUPER IMPORTANT).  This is one of the most valuable bits of information that’s been circulated around the internet in a long time.  Being from Arizona, there are at least 20 kids that die each year from drowning and not all of them fall into pools when parents aren’t looking.  Sometimes we just don’t know what to look for, but this article shares the signs of someone in distress.  This article is also great, as it discusses water safety and children in particular.  And here, it says that according to the National SAFE KIDS campaign, 9 out of 10 kids drown while under adult supervision (not necessarily in direct site), meaning we’re not really WATCHING our kids around water, we just think we are.  Scary stuff.

In summary, everything ended up being okay in the end, but PLEASE make sure that if there’s water around, your little one(s) have on flotation devices and that you’re watching them like a hawk.

‘Til next time,

Nicole

What I Wore Wednesday-Week 1

For the past few weeks I’ve been meaning to jump on in over at The Pleated Poppy and join Lindsey’s “What I Wore Wednesday” link party, but hadn’t had time to actually sit down and write about what I had been wearing.  Well, I made the time!  I’m avoiding doing dishes to do it, but that’s okay (I hate doing dishes).  I have really needed to participate in this since lately I’ve been a little frumpy in the “getting dressed” department.  I was looking for some motivation, and this link party is it!

So a disclaimer or two-as mentioned before, I am totally addicted to Old Navy flip flops.  Hence why almost every outfit is sporting them!  I have added some new shoes to my collection as of late, and am trying to work heels back into my wardrobe after having J3.

Second disclaimer, J2 went back to working nights this week, so I am taking showers at night so as not to disturb him once he gets to sleep.  Excuse the hair-it’s not always up under a hat or in a ponytail, but it seems like it is all the time here.  Once I get used to the new routine at our house, I’ll start doing my hair and putting on makeup again 😉

So here goes nothing…

Thursday:  It started raining later in the day, so this was to run out and then for working at home.

Green Hoodie:  Old Navy clearance

Jeans:  Ann Taylor Loft (thrifted-I bought them to cut them into capris but they were actually long enough!)

Flip Flops:  Old Navy

Friday:  Again, raining.  And I had errands to run.

Black and White Striped T-shirt:  Old Navy on clearance

Jeans:  Star from Buckle (gift from Hubby, although 90% of my jeans are from there.  Jeans are the one thing I splurge on since I’ve got really long legs and am hard to fit)

Black patent ballet flats:  Xhileration from Target-I found them on clearance for $5!!

White Nike baseball cap:   Found at Ross years ago-it’s my go-to hat

Saturday:  Thrifting and then dinner with J2 and J3

Black dress:  Gap, thrifted

Shoes:  Kenneth Cole, bought at TJ Maxx probably five years ago

Sunglasses:  I wear these on my head all the time.  They’re D&G and I love them-gift from J2

Sunday: Out running errands and shopping/thrifting.  I ran into my neighbor at Babies R Us who told me she loved my dress and then a woman in the parking lot told me how cute I looked and that she thought it was cool that I dressed up when I had my baby with me.  It made me glow!

Yellow dress:  Forever 21, thrifted (found the day before-will post about it tomorrow!)

Shoes:  Xhilaration from Target.  I was on the hunt for these shoes, but no such luck.  These were on the clearance rack though and I thought they would be the next best thing to (406) Olivia’s pair.  Granted, although they are pretty comfortable, they make me 6’3″ and a lot of people were staring . Hrmph, like I care!

Brown wood necklace:  gift from my mom when I was a kid

Here’s a close up of those super cuties!

Monday:  Passport application appointment, grocery shopping and more thrifting!

Red and Grey/White/Black Tank Tops:  Old Navy

Jeans:  Star from Buckle

Red patent leather shoes:  Mossimo, thrifted.  I love these little sling backs, but they do not like to stay on my feet (they slip off my heels).  Anyone have any suggestions on how to get that to happen?

Tuesday:  J2 was off, so we went to the pool and hung out

Black halter style swimsuit:  Old Navy from last year

Tube dress:  I made it from fabric I found at Walmart!  One seam sewn down the length of the dress and a hem, then that puppy was done.

Flip Flops:  Wanna guess?  Yep, Old Navy!

Wednesday:  Library, thrifting and Michael’s.

Brown top:  Old Navy

Shorts:  Abercrombie, thrifted

Belt:  I think Target-I’ve had that belt for literally years…

Flip Flops:  Yep, Old Navy

It appears that I go thrifting quite a bit, which is not normal.  See, J3 is at a stage where all he does is bang things around and shriek.  Since J2 is getting used to working nights after working days for the past five years, J3 and I have been leaving the house during the day so he can sleep.  Goodwill is having a huge 50% sale in all of there stores here in the Fort Worth area on the 21st and they handed out a list of all the shops in the area (there are 12).  There were many that I had never visited, so I thought for the next week or so we would hit as many as we could and use it for the Thrifty Thursdays posts.  So far I’ve found some great items, many of which I will show tomorrow and wear throughout the week!

Special thanks to my husband for taking the pictures-I need to get a full length mirror so that they will be closer and so I don’t have to wait until he wakes up in the afternoon (after running around all day).

This has been so much fun!  I can’t wait for next week.

Poppy

‘Til next time,

Nicole

Sunday Confessional

So, the other morning I’m innocently sitting in my home office, trying to get through my 1000 emails (hmmm, thinking I may need to trim the ol’ blog list down), when I notice while looking out the window that there are a large amount of weeds popping out from behind a couple of the shrubs in my back flower bed.  Now, I love that back flower bed because it contains seven different rose bushes, a lilac bush (that hates me and refuses to bloom), and some gorgeous scarlet wisteria that are also slow to bloom this year.  It also contains some other plants, but those are my favorites.  Considering the fact it’s been HOT AS FRICKIN’ HADES in the Dallas/Fort Worth area and at that point it was still early, I decide to go out and snag those few weeds before it gets too hot.  No biggie, right?  WRONG.

The first thing I notice is this:

Yep, a big fat wasps’ nest in the middle of one of my rose bushes.  This, after the exterminators came out two weeks ago and did their thing, removing six wasp nests in the process.  Okay, no biggie, mental note to call them to come out and remove the little buggers since that’s part of our agreement.

I’m weeding along, and disappear back behind two blue spruce bushes.  I’m nearing the wisteria and notice that one of the tendrils is a little wonky-as in, growing into the spruce AND into another rose bush.  I grab the tendril and start pulling it up onto a secure spot on the fence when I look up and not six inches from my face is this:

HOLY MARY MOTHER OF GOD WHAT THE EFFING HELL IS THAT?!?

Needless to say, I screamed like a four year old girl, loud enough in fact, to have my neighbor come out onto his back patio and ask if I was okay.  Uh, no.  I was back up against the opposite fence, scratching and itching because, although I was not getting close enough to take a really good shot, that is a two and a half inch (garden) spider in the above picture and they give me the heebie geebies!  For the record, yes, I know that garden spiders are not the kind that eat your flesh or bite you and you die.  Yeah, I know, I know.  But here’s where the Sunday Confessional part comes in.  See, I am deathly afraid of spiders bigger than a quarter, and I’m giving myself credit there.  More like a dime, maybe a penny if I’ve had a drink, but not anything larger.  This is due to the fact that when I was four my family lived in Great Falls, Montana and we lived next door to a boy named Bobby.  Bobby was about eight years old, the devil incarnate, and loved to chase me and the other little girls in the neighborhood around and drop big fat spiders like this down the back of our shirts.  So to this day, the thought of spiders gives me nightmares.  And everyone knows it.  When the movie Arachnophobia came out, my dad deceived me into watching it with him, and then lightly tickled my legs when the first spiders came on . Unfortunately for Dad, I punched him in the arm and ran screaming from the room.  I think I itched and scratched for the rest of the night.

And you do know that feeling when I say itched and scratched, right?  Like there are little (or big) spider legs crawling all over your skin?  Okay, just checking.  YUCK!!

So of course, after stumbling into the house, trying to avoid the piles of dog poop that I’ve failed to clean up in the lawn, I yell for my husband to get his butt up (he works nights) and fix the “problem”.  Poor guy, he’s only been asleep for an hour or so, but he goes outside and here’s how the conversation goes:

J2:  “So where is it?’

Me: “In the wisteria.”

J2: “Which one is the wisteria again?”

Me: (Me rolling my eyes) “The stuff climbing up the fence.”

J2: (looking at the three huge plants climbing up the fence)-“Uh, you’re going to have to help me out here.”

Me: (Reluctantly leaving the patio, dodging poop as I go and pointing from 15 feet away)- “Right there, that big ass web with the big ass spider in it-you know, with the really long legs and the yellow and orange body.”

J2: “Wow!  How cool is that?!?”

Me: “Are you effing kidding me?!?  Get rid of it!”  (pretty sure I said the real word here, but keepin’ it PG)

J2: “No way, they’re good for the garden.  You want it gone, you kill it.”

**Right here is where I debate how much a divorce would cost me, how much I like my house, my car, my flower bed…crap…the spider isn’t worth it***

J2:  “Seriously, come take a look-it’s really cool.”

I inch closer…and closer…and then realize when I’m about ten feet away that it is pretty cool looking.  And that it won’t eat me, just the nasty flies we’ve had issues with.  And then I concede.  But only to a certain extent.

Me: “So you’re going to weed the rest of the flower bed? Because I’m not.”

J2:  “Nope, that’s still all yours.”

Looks like the flower bed will be full of weeds this summer…and my skin is crawling as I write this…

Til next time!

Nicole

Happy Birthday America!

Hey everyone, I’m taking a few days off since my in-laws are in town helping celebrate J2’s birthday (yesterday) and the 4th of July (obviously today).  I’ll be back in full force later in the week!

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The Flag (photo by Jane M. Sawyer, courtesy of morguefile.com)